LYRICS - Sexual Abuse Reflected On a Decade Later

Sexual abuse reflected on a decade later/ ode to a passive aggressive

7-14-99

poem #554

LYRICS:

I’d never wish it upon myself

but now I’m realizing it isn’t all bad

IT is bad

but not all that comes of it.

My childhood was stolen;

for that I’m sad.

But in effect I became more mature.

In hard situations

I could endure

without much effort

put forth by me (I suppose).

Hey

Hey

Hey

Though I didn’t/ get to experience

what most people do

why is that considered a tragedy?

Why would I want to be the same as all the rest?

From the minute I was conceived

my life was diverging from the normal path.

Look at the diverging road and me —

try to compute the math.

Hey

Hey

Hey

I’d be a different person.

I’d have a different soul.

I may have the same interests

and/or think the same

with a different goal.

Hey

Hey

Hey

You can fuck me

all you want

but you’ll never have

my soul.

You can fuck me

for as long as you want

but you’ll never

have control.

[1]Violate me

in violet times

the vilest way that you know.

Ruin me.

Ravage me.

Utterly savage me.

On me, no mercy bestow.

Hey

Hey

Hey

You never think that

you can deal with it

until it happens

and then you do.

Why do you

lock the door

when the people

you should

be most afraid of

are inside your house

living among you?

I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid

I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid

I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid

I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid

I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid

I used to be careful but now I’m just as paranoid as hell.

Hey

Hey

Hey

LYRICS W/ CHORDS:

[processor setting: 13B, 84A, (38A)]

[time signature: 7/8]

[D A A# G—power chords]

[play 2 measures & then start singing]

[verse 1:]

I’d never wish it upon myself

but now I’m realizing it isn’t all bad

IT is bad

but not all that comes of it

my childhood was stolen

for that I’m sad

but in effect I became more mature

in hard situations

i could endure

without much effort

put forth by me [rest] (I suppose).

[chorus:]

hey----------------------------(sing F)

hey----------------------------(sing D)

hey----------------------------(sing G F)

-------------------------------(sing A D)

[verse 2:]

Though I didn’t/ get to experience

what most people do

why is that considered a tragedy?

why would I want to be the same as all the rest?

from the minute I was conceived

my life was diverging from the normal path

look at the diverging road and me—

try to compute the math.

[chorus:]

hey----------------------------(sing F)

hey----------------------------(sing D)

hey----------------------------(sing G F)

-------------------------------(sing A D)

[verse 3:]

I’d be a different person

i’d have a different soul

i may have the same interests

and/or think the same

with a different goal.

[chorus:]

hey----------------------------(sing F)

hey----------------------------(sing D)

hey----------------------------(sing G F)

-------------------------------(sing A D)

[time signature: 4/4]

[Cm F#m Em G Em—normal chords]

You can fuck me

all you want

but you’ll never have

my soul.

[Cm F#m Em G Am Dm Asus2—Em—normal chords]

You can fuck me

for as long as you want

but you’ll never

have control.

[insert bird’s eye symbol here]

time signature: 7/8]

[a tempo]

[D A A# G—power chords]

[verse 4:]

[1]Violate me

in violet times

the vilest way that you know.

Ruin me

Ravage me

utterly savage me

on me no mercy bestow.

[chorus:]

hey----------------------------(sing F)

hey----------------------------(sing D)

hey----------------------------(sing G F)

-------------------------------(sing A D)

you never think that

you can deal with it

until it happens

and then you do.

why do you

lock the door

when the people

you should

be most afraid of

are inside your house

living among you?

I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid

I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid

I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid

I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid

I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid

I used to be careful but now I’m just as paranoid as hell

[chorus:]

hey----------------------------(sing F)

hey----------------------------(sing D)

hey----------------------------(sing G F)

-------------------------------(sing A D)

[end on Dm power chord]

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[1] This stanza is quoted from an old song in 1944.