Wednesday, July 14, 1999

LYRICS - Sexual Abuse Reflected On a Decade Later


Sexual abuse reflected on a decade later/ ode to a passive aggressive
7-14-99
poem #554

LYRICS:

I’d never wish it upon myself
but now I’m realizing it isn’t all bad
IT is bad
but not all that comes of it.
My childhood was stolen;
for that I’m sad.
But in effect I became more mature.
In hard situations
I could endure
without much effort
put forth by me (I suppose).

Hey
Hey
Hey

Though I didn’t/ get to experience
what most people do
why is that considered a tragedy?
Why would I want to be the same as all the rest?
From the minute I was conceived
my life was diverging from the normal path.
Look at the diverging road and me —
try to compute the math.

Hey
Hey
Hey

I’d be a different person.
I’d have a different soul.
I may have the same interests
and/or think the same
with a different goal.

Hey
Hey
Hey

You can fuck me
all you want
but you’ll never have
my soul.

You can fuck me
for as long as you want
but you’ll never
have control.

[1]Violate me
in violet times
the vilest way that you know.
Ruin me.
Ravage me.
Utterly savage me.
On me, no mercy bestow.


Hey
Hey
Hey

You never think that
you can deal with it
until it happens
and then you do.

Why do you
lock the door
when the people
you should
be most afraid of
are inside your house
living among you?

I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid
I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid
I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid
I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid
I used to be careful/ but now I’m paranoid
I used to be careful but now I’m just as paranoid as hell.

Hey
Hey
Hey

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