Sexual abuse
reflected on a decade later/ ode to a passive aggressive
7-14-99
poem #554
LYRICS:
I’d never wish it upon
myself
but now I’m realizing it
isn’t all bad
IT is
bad
but not all that comes of
it.
My childhood was stolen;
for
that I’m sad.
But in effect I became
more mature.
In
hard situations
I could endure
without much effort
put forth by me (I suppose).
Hey
Hey
Hey
Though I didn’t/ get to
experience
what most people do
why is that considered a
tragedy?
Why would I want to be the
same as all the rest?
From the minute I was
conceived
my life was diverging from
the normal path.
Look at the diverging road
and me —
try to compute the math.
Hey
Hey
Hey
I’d be a different person.
I’d have a different soul.
I may have the same interests
and/or think the same
with a different goal.
Hey
Hey
Hey
You can fuck me
all you want
but you’ll never have
my soul.
You can fuck me
for as long as you want
but you’ll never
have control.
[1]Violate me
in
violet times
the
vilest way that you know.
Ruin me.
Ravage me.
Utterly savage me.
On me, no mercy bestow.
Hey
Hey
Hey
You never think that
you can deal with it
until it happens
and then you do.
Why do you
lock the door
when the people
you should
be most afraid of
are inside your house
living among you?
I used to be careful/ but
now I’m paranoid
I used to be careful/ but
now I’m paranoid
I used to be careful/ but
now I’m paranoid
I used to be careful/ but
now I’m paranoid
I used to be careful/ but
now I’m paranoid
I used to be careful but now
I’m just as paranoid as hell.
Hey
Hey
Hey
LYRICS W/ CHORDS:
